I don't think I can get it all out!

HAHA Out of my mind that is.... I have ALOT to talk about. blah blah blah blah blah blah! Ok really though first of all I have to tell you that in my new class, I'm already in week 3 and I've made nothing but perfect grades so far! Remember the last class I took and I was making like 1.5/4 or 2.0/4... that was ridiculous! This instructor is so much awesomer and she gives us awesome feedback on exactly what we wrote, not random crap like the last lady! and she also told us if we don't do good on an assignment she will have us redo it... I emailed my last instructor and asked her if I could redo it and she told me no and pretty much that I was stupid... in a nicer manner.... and you know what I forgot to evaluate her... ohhhhh shes lucky! I probably refrained from evaluating her because I knew I would do and say bad things. It's not good to evaluate someone bad, i would feel bad, maybe I'm just that stupid... but really 50% on like 3 assignments when I've never made a freakin F in my life!!!!!!!!! Yea RIDONCULOUS! yea I said ridonculous not ridiculous. Ok now let me tell you something thats been on my mind a lot lately.... Have you ever wonder if you are where God wants you to be in life? Did you follow His plan or go with your own? I have recently learned from a friend the true meaning of being a follower and how you should wait for God to clearly show you what you should do. So I've been wondering.... is this where I'm supposed to be or where I want to be? Another thing... I have seen and heard and listened to a few people talk about "Where was God" during the tornado.... and they all came to the conclusion about not to celebrate that God was with you... cuz he wasnt with someone else? Here's the deal though... if it happened to me you're dang right I'd be Praising God for protecting me.... whether it bothers someone or not... HE was the ONE who protected your hiney and you better bet I'll be praising HIM!!! He's protected me and my children more than once in my life and while it may have harmed others... I could care less.. It's between Me and God.... BUT now where was God with those little kids in that school who got killed? That's hard to say but you can be dang right he was there. He was probably welcoming those children into heaven before they were even gone.... This world contains so much evil that maybe he was saving those children from something. Or maybe he is providing an eternal life for their parents... There is only one way those families will see those children again and that is thru Jesus Christ! Maybe they didn't know him........ Maybe they hate HIM now... but you know what... I know someone who was mad at God and it led to one of the most God praising people I've ever known in my life. There is something good to come out of that. I do have one complaint..... There should not be 20,000 houses in a 30 mile radius.... or however far it was.... that's a lot of houses in a small area!!!! If their houses were as spread out as ours in the country... it wouldn't have been so much.... I mean i know there are places bigger than colcord american... but still. Here's whats weird.... you see all the hosues destroyed and then one right across the street that isn't even damaged.... one leveled and one not touched.... weird... Maybe those people pleaded the blood of Jesus over their house.... Hm. Who knows? God is amazing and works in very amazing ways.. you just always have to look for the good in a situation. Although I'm telling you I would have a very hard time finding good out of a situation if my children were killed. that would be so hard... I do pray for those families and of anyone that died... super sad. Anyways........ hmmmmmmmmmmmmm so i had a yard sale and made like 300 and some dollars! Cool huh! 300 and some dollars worth of junk! Oh yea another thing.... actually no i better not say it... maybe i should have a private blog that only i read... then i can vent some more.. lol! Alrighty................................................. GOODBYE!

AH HAHAHAHAH! THIS IS HYSTERICAL!

OK so first of all i have to tell you, i've been seeing these blogs that are all cool looking. They are pretty and organized and spaced and stuff, mine are all munched together. Like i can push enter several times so theres space between the lines and it still jumbles it all together. Dang i wanna cool blog..... (Gonna push enter three times here....) Ok so now for the hysterical part... I'll just get straight to the point before I tell the whole story.... I GOT BUCKED OFF OF A PONY!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! ISN'T THAT HYSTERICAL?! HHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!Ok now... G wanted to pet the pony but she wasnt going to ride it because last time she fell off of it cuz the dog bit its tail.. so i went and got it and said wheres the saddle? G said no i'm not riding it... so i didn't put the saddle on it, well she pet it and she was done, so i thought... i didn't go all the way out there to get the pony just so she could pet it.. so i tied its leadrope so it was like a bridle.. and hopped on... well its back is really little and narrow anyways so i was trying to get situated... finally get situated and say come on .... and make the kissin noise ya know... well he dont go so i barely kicked him on the belly and all of a sudden i thought he was just going to take off running... but it was kinda like a run stop and buck type thing that i was nowhere near prepared for... and next thing i know im face first in the ground.... hahahahahahaha! HAHAHAHAHAHAH! HHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! Well i'm laying there thinkin about how bad my legs hurt cuz i hit the ground really hard..... and my mom is just busting out laughing..... so then i start laughin and g is on the swing set bawling......... i guess she thought i was hurt.. i dunno. but i was laying there almost crying but laughing at the same time.... When i finally get up i go get the pony in the pen find a little rock and chunk it at him... and hes lucky it didn't hit him.. because it hit a pine tree and bounced off of it really hard... then mom proceeds to tell me that all their ponies they had when they were little just had 1 eye.... and I'm like hmmmmmm i wonder why???? NOW I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!! Theyre stupid! next time i'll be prepared to hold on... hahahahah! I seriously couldn't beleive i just got bucked off..... i was in pure amazement. So the earthquake you felt tonight... yea that was just me.... no worries. I probly won't be able to get out of bed tomorrow! I bet my mom just can't wait to tell my dad I got bucked off that pony. I think that made her day. I said mom what if i broke my legs? she said I'd probly still be laughing because that was funny! geeeeeeez. So as i'm driving home down the dirt roads i'm thinking about stuff.... because i think alot, if you haven't noticed. And actually i'm thinkin about men... HAHAHAHAHHAHA! MEN! anyways you know what i LOVE about men (well, some men)... VEINY HANDS! isn't that weird. that comes second to teeth..... This sounds weird... but my cousins all have really veiny hands... and you can see the veins go up their arms... i think its REALLY cool! i love veins. i think they're cool. HA anyways.... Now actually heres what i was thinking. i wish when i thought about stuff i could just say it and it type it on my blog.... cuz sometimes i have really interesting stuff in my mind..... Like this...... When i was a little girl, i thought bruises were so cool! I thought they were so cool that in 5th grade, I repeatedly punched myself in the face so i could have a black eye.... ok so that sounds bad... but of course i wasn't hitting myself hard.... that would hurt. i just sat there and tapped my fist below my eye because i wanted to look cool.... to this day i still love black eyes! I've only had i think 2 black eyes in my life... and guess what? They were both from baseball! Once my uncle threw the ball REALLY high (it's weird that i still remember this) i was probably like 8 or 7 or 6 or something i was young... and i tried to catch it and the sun was in my eyes.... or something... and the ball smacked me right in the eye ball! i thought i was so cool! FINALLY I HAD A BLACK EYE!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAH. at the time i didn't think it was cool because it hurt so bad, but then you know you have to go look in the mirror to see how bad it looks. ok the second time (weird i remember this one also) i dont think it was really my eye... but i do think it got black around that area.... i was playing a baseball game and you know i was the pitcher (because i'm awesome.... or WAS awesome) i was probably 10 this time... and there was a hit to the outfield they threw it home and the catched missed it, so i ran home because the 3rd base runner was running home... and the catcher threw it to me hard but the sun was right in my eyes.... and it hit me right in the temple (well not right in the temple or i would've died) but i think i was knocked out for a minute cause i remember waking up to the umpire in my face asking if i was alright? AM I ALRIGHT? DO I LOOK ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! haha. well it left stitch marks on my head..... now that was REALLY COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was pretty soon after that when my mom made me stop playing baseball and i had to go play sissy softball with the girls! dang her..... it was only because they all tried to hit me when i batted, because i struck them out. That sounds sarcastic but i'm being serious...... they really hit me almost everytime i got up to bat.... they hated me. I love how i can remember things from baseball, those were the best years of my life. I remember having a crush on a boy..... and i think one time i cried becuase it was our last baseball game or something and i wouldn't see him no more.... HAHAHAHAH! i can still remember some of their names... tucker.... and ummm there was a ben.... ha thats about all i remember.. i just remember it was so fun! i wish i could be a kid all my life. isn't it sad that you have to grow up..... not really but really! well i hope my spaces worked... if they didn't they'll be all jumbled............ sad face.......... good day matey!

Issues and Trends in Early Childhood---------------------> MISSION COMPLETE

SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT YEA!!!!!!!!!!! IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE!!!! CAN YOU BELEIVE IT! I ACTUALLY FINISHED THIS COURSE! I have never hated a course as bad as this one. ohhhh boy i cant wait to evaluate that teacher! heheeh. would you like to read the last paragraph of my assignment... oh wait speaking of my assignment i must turn it in to my eportfolio... one moment while i submit that.....(I sounded like those people you call to cancel stuff huh? "One moment while i take care of that for you... ok can i help you with anything else today?") "Throughout this course, I have struggled quite a bit. Through this struggle I have dug deep inside myself and pulled out the true me. I have always been taught to never give up. In spite of these struggles, I’ve come to realize they are nothing compared to the struggles some children face everyday. Whether it be the fact that they are facing poverty, racism, hate and oppression or the fact that they have autism, bipolar disorder, mental retardation or some other disability. My struggle is nothing compared to theirs. It is an option for me to continue through my struggles or quit and be completely struggle free. For these children, it is not an option. They are starving, naked and cold and they can do nothing about it. So I have come to face the fact that I will continue to struggle by my own choice to better educate myself on these children’s struggles, so one day I can make a difference and maybe protect children from these types of struggles. I may not be able to help every child, but I will do my best to help every child that I can." Isn't that just precious... Believe or not the world doesn't revolve around me. That is one thing I've learned an abundance about in this course, about poverty. So you know tomorrow it's back to real life.... gotta love it! I had an amazing three days away.. a very lovely drive on the way up there, great conversation, great friends... and last but not least... MMMMMMEEEEEMMMMMOOOOORRRRRIIIIIIEEEEEESSSSS! haha. I so wish we could've watched that baseball game, but since we didn't at least we went back to the stadium and got forms to fill out for a refund! THANK GOD! I'd hate to pay 48 bucks for NOTHIN!! And i also got to practice changing a flat tire on my tahoe. I've never had to put a spare tire on the tahoe. of course i've changed many flats, but never on the tahoe..... so getting the spare tire down took about 20 minutes and the rest took about 5... hahahah. that was probably the best part of the trip... luckily at least one person with me knew how to help... while the other 2 directed traffic.. lol! just kidding. It was a fun memory... and a great trip. at least we made it home safe... right? Yep safe and sound and slept amazing until about 930 this morning in my own bed! Alright now that my stress is OVER, i will get out of here and actually relax for the rest of my sunday night! WAHOO!!!! Hope everyone has a lovely week!

I'm An Inventor!

Ok so you know I'm getting pretty creative. First of all, remember my little "teacher toolbelt" (Patent Pending) that I was going to make because of that terrible invisible person in my classroom that ALWAYS steals my pens!!!!!! Well today while teaching color words, I decided I need to invent crayons, that ONLY have the color word on them in big print! Teaching color words would be so much easier if they did this! They could be called "Teachable Crayons" or "The Crayon Box That Taught" (instead of talked... lol!) (Patent Pending... HAHAHAHHA)Oh my gosh I'm a genius (did I spell that right). While I'm at it I may just write a song! If I wrote a song it would have to be about how perfect I am... and how ridiculous everyone else is!!!! hahaha jk. Isn't it weird how YOU (talking about me) are normal and your friends are normal but a lot of other people are very weird.... hahahah. I mean really... to the other people, i bet they think YOU (not talking about me here... haha) are weird. It's weird how everyone thinks their beleifs (that's spelt wrong, i before e except after c) are right and other peoples are wrong. Who is to say who is right? I feel like I'm always right... unless I'm wrong of course, but you know what I'm never wrong. and if i just so happen to be wrong (which i never am), then I'm not very happy, but I'm always happy cuz i'm never wrong.... get what i'm tryin to say there.... hahahah! Remember when I started the blog how I stated I have to start a blog because I like to blab... and my friends don't like me if i blab, so i start a blog... haha only kidding. I blab all the time, in fact I never shut up. I mainly love to tell dreams.. you know why? because the dream is so clear in your mind and when you start to tell it.... you are reminded of how it is alllllllll weird and you shoulda never started telling it in the first place. That happens to me everytime. It goes something like this "so last night i had a dream and we were at the milk barn... no wait this is weird... actually the milk barn was at school... no actually it wasn't a milk barn... It was just a school that had milk stalls in it... ok now i can't remember what else happened" hahahahah you know how dreams are sooooooooo weird!!! I love dreams, but I haven't had a dream in a long time... usually if i do it's about me losing or breaking my retainer.. (which I MUST have or i could possibly die)... or some ex scumbag trying to find me or suck up or make up to me or something like that. but about 3 or 4 months ago i dreamed every night and it was so awesome! I LOVE dreams! anyways................... wow haven't been blabby in a while. Soooooooooo. I started this to talk about my inventions and it turned into this... but at least now you know how perfect I am! Right?

why hello there.......

ha! what an intro... so do you remember at the beginning when i started the blog how i mentioned my mind wants to blow up when it gets soooooooo full....... well guess what? it's been how long since I wrote a blog post? so yea.... my mind.... on the verge of blowing.......... wayyyyyyyyyyyy to much crap going on right now! I hate grad school! next week is my last week of this class and Praise the Lord I'm done with that one! That teacher is soooooooooooooooo not nice! (Hope I don't accidentally post this on my school blog that we have to have..... that would suck!) I'd definitly get an F then.... This is by far the hardest class I"ve had yet. I thought oh man this is a piece of cake.. until this class and I try my best and still get freaking F's on assignments! Then I'll get 100%'s for a couple of weeks then back to F's..... I think she's picking on me. She is being very bias and grading based on her opinions and not being open to the ideas of others..... yea anyways.... I actually get a week off after this class... then back to it again... But if my NSU crap gets figured out, I'll be there this summer instead of the other place. So I'm supposed to be doing an assignment right now that's due tonight... but guess what? HA IM NOT!!!!!! ok so you know used to i'd write a blog like every sunday night because I'd be up all night doing an assignment.. well here i am again. I feel like if i blog before i write then my mind is clear of everything I'm mad about or worried about or anything like that. Man this coming week is a big week!soooo busy! You know the last week of this class is the week of the "major assignments" that must be submitted to the eportfolio.... which means they have to be gooooooooooooood! and i just so happen to be unavailable this coming weekend.... therefore I MUST get it done before this weekend!!! By this weekend I pretty much mean has to be done WEDNESDAY!!!! that will probly never happen and I'll be up until midnight next sunday night doing the same thing I am tonight except minus the blogging because I will actually HAVE to get it done or I will fail the class. I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about this...... but i guess ill stop! So lets talk about yesterday..... first went to a tball game.. how fun... next played basketball against the harlem wizards.... now that was fun. but bad.... because now I wanna play basketball again!!!!! I think we should start having a monthly game for a fundraiser or something... that would be fun. It was totally a blast and those guys were really funny. You know what would be real cool... like a league of basketball put together that consisted of old teams.... like and we could play kansas vs. colcord.. but the old teams! that would be soooooooo fun! of course were all old... but who cares it would just be for fun and be fun! And the money could go toward the Pre-K fund.... HAHAHAHHAHA just kidding. You know when you have those times in your life you feel like you should be doing MORE with your life.... apparently I'm at that stage. I guess that's why I'm getting my masters... so i can go and do MORE for early childhood. I love teaching pre-k and the main reason is because it's not like you have the same job every year.... my job is different every year because the kids are different every year...... you will never have 2 kids that are the same... and its fun. My patience has seemed to go downhill since I've began though... but i think its because all the crap that has went on in my life since then and now..... i need to relax a little more... sometimes i am way to strict and i totally know that... but sometimes there are those kids that you need to get strict with to get the point across.. the main thing i love about my job is the way you get to see the kids change throughout the year and how much knowledge they gain.. and also through the years.. my very first class is now in 2nd grade.... and i love to see how big they are and how much they've changed... can't wait til they're seniors... well maybe i can because that'll mean i'm old! Let me tell you what I love about playing sports when my daughter can watch me... after the game i said "was that funny? did you like watching mommy play?" she said "yea!" I said "so are you gonna play ball when you get big?" she firmly said "NNNNOOOO!!! Not against those guys!!!!!" HAHAHAHAH! i said no no you won't play against those guys.. itll be people your size.. she was like ohhhhhh... I feel like if she sees me play and sees that i enjoy it and she enjoys watching it that she will play it too. She better! D keeps saying .... your gonna be a cheerleader like your mom! I'm always like noooooooooo i was not a cheerleader and if you're a cheerleader i WILL NOT come watch you!!!!!!!! hahahahahha. nothing against cheerleaders of course... if you know me, you know cheerleading is not something i like..... at all! Alright better really do homework now...........

Wow it's been a while!!!

Wonder if someones thinking about me right now??? Hahahaha just kidding! I can't go to sleep!!!!! You know why?? Because I got my homework done 24 hours before it was due!!!!! Does this ever happen??? Ummm no! A whole day early!!! I barely get it in in time. Let me tell you what's weird. Last Sunday I wrote a 12 page paper for my eportfolio, for some reason that to me was so hard I needed a whole week off, so I started my new class Monday, and had discussion due n Wednesday, I didn't wanna do it so bad that I copied several other people's posts together and made a new post! Oooooops I added a lot if my own opinion, but I couldn't get the video to load either so I had no choice but to cheat...... But it wasn't really cheating cuz I still had to write my own opinion on the facts in the video... Anyways so I did all that being lazy and then I planned in slacking in my application due tomorrow.... But i sat down tonight and I did it!!!! And did an amazing job I must say!! Especially After slacking all week on that stuff!!! On Tuesday I decided I wanted to quit.... It's soooooo much to do!!!!!!' And I soooooo don't have time for it.... Bt you know what when it's over... Ill be glad I did it! I'm almost halfway there, can't quit now! Ok so I'm still ecstatic about having my assignment dine earlier! So let me tell you my life story.... Last week I hate healthy almost every day, and I gained a couple pounds so I thought you know what... This isn't worth it.. So Monday and Tuesday of this week I had a dr pepper and one of those big maple logs for breakfast.... Well on wednesdayni felt SOOOOO FAT!!! So I said ok I'm going to eat healthy the next two days... And I did! String cheese and a banana for breakfast, smart ones for lunch and not too much for supper.... Well I'm not losing any weight!!! I've even been walking a mile on Thursday and Friday.... Come on!!!! I just wanna weigh under 140...... It's such a struggle to get there...gah who cares! I gonna eat some more donuts.... Haha only kidding.. Like my mom says my butt is gonna be 2 ax handles wide.... Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha! That could be from that Oreo pizza I had on Wednesday night!!! Anyways... I have had so much on my mind and wanted to sit down and type so bad... But when I sit down it seems to just go away.. So apparently it's not important... Ok guess ill try to sleep now...

Life is like a box of chocolates.... Or toothpaste tube.. Lol!

I have a photo to upload but it won't let me on here! It's a pic of our toothpaste..... It's been all scrawny for like a week now... Like we have to get every last drop. Hahaha. It's funny because earlier when I out it on my toothbrush I was thinking I don't know what I'm gonna do when this runs out! Haha! And then I was thinking man sometimes I feel like this toothpaste... Like I've had the life sucked out of me. I read in a magazine the other day about a lady who gets up at 5 every morning just to enjoy the "me" time, and she even mentioned how much she loved her sleep... This sounds like a great idea! I try to get every minute in I can!!!! Usually I'm in bed til like 7:08.... Hahahaha and I leave around 7:35... I LOVE my sleep! But I stay up late too! Maybe if I go to bed early I could get up at 5.... But I doubt it... It sounds like a wonderful idea... Just wished I drank coffee then it's be perfect! Haha. I ate 2 of those caramel eggs a while ago man I'm gonna get fat!!! Hahaha! I have to stop eating so much! When im at school I eat good but when I'm at home for a whole day bam that's gone!!! You know what else I read??? That exercising doesn't make you lose weight..... Exercising makes you lose inches.. To lose weight you have to eat right also..... Hmm. I'm not cut out for eating right. It sucks its like when I turned 25 I started gaining weight when I eat bad! I used to could eat and eat and eat and not gain a pound.... Now it's not like that at all! Today was the best day off Ever!!! Me and g were home until like 230! Then we had to take some movies back but she was an angel! I think she's finally last those devil fits.... Last time I said that she had one right after that. Now just have to get the whining to stop!!!! That is sooooo annoying! She has to get shots this week! Ahhhhhhh noooooo! I'm going to cry!!!!!! I told her though... I didn't want to hide it from her. I think she will be prepared a ready since she knows, instead of her not knowing and them pulling out the needles! I could see her freakin out if that happened! Man I had a lot to say! But it's too hard to type it on the iPad!!!!! My class is almost over! I so can't wait. This is the last week for stuff and then next week I just have one assignment and its a major assignment that I have to turn into my portfolio... But so thankful it's almost over. Then a new class begins! I haven't wrote a blog post in forever!!! Bt I have to stop now and go to bed! Maybe ill get up at 5! Haha NOT