Here's My Secret

Are you ready? This is something you'll never expect. Ok.... Me and Dustin are no longer together. Yea weird, stupid, dumb, whatever you wanna say.... Talk about me now please...... Here's the truth: we're still friends and he's a GREAT guy! I still love him and I always will..... But apparently we are just two people who don't belong together... i guess? So I'm confessing this now so when you see it in the newspaper one of these days, you won't say "what happened" here's what happened....... NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.... understand? hahahaha! just kidding. but really... that's something that shouldn't go public and if i've told you or if dustin has told you, then it's your business.... but don't be offended if you ask me and i tell you it doesn't matter... So now for the sympathy part.... I've been living by myself for 2 months.... it sucks, i'm lonely and yes i'm at my parents house all the time, so go ahead and judge me on that too.... but i'm bored, all the time. I hate to be on a break, I love to be at work because it keeps my mind off of things and i stay busy... at home i have nothing to do and when i get bored i get sad.... so i stay where people are all the time, so i don't start thinking about stuff...... Anyways........ that's the story.. don't ask any questions please, because seriously one time someone asked me about it and i started bawling.... do you wanna see me cry? If you don't then you better not ask me.... I mean really I'm ok... but at the same time I'm not.... The only reason i posted this is because I didn't want anyone asking when they seen it in the paper... and the second reason is because when you ask me about dustin and I don't know the answer... i can't lie about it anymore. So there's the news.... great huh.... no not really. Let me tell you what sucks. It sucks that when you're 16 you plan out your entire life.... getting married, having 3 kids and being married for the next 80 years..... and raising your children together.... then life smacks you in the face and you've been divorced twice and once again your raising your child on your own..... That's what sucks. but i guess God has a plan for everyone... although it's hard to look at it that way sometime.... it's the truth. And it's something that has to be accepted. Ok anyways I have nothing else to say... I should do my homework now... hey it's been a while since i told you I HATE SCHOOL!!!! NEVER GET YOUR MASTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! But hey listen to this.... After this class, i have ONE CLASS LEFT!!!!! and then my capstone and IM DONE!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the homework is getting harder and harder for me to do.... stress with life plus i just dont have a want to do it! but you know what.... I WILL!!!!!!!!!! Because once upon a time someone said I would never finish with my bachelors degree and you know what i did! When people say I won't do something.... I HAVE TO DO IT! People will not determind my life..... that is my choice..... alright... I hope everyone has a good thanksgiving....