Alright isn't it weird that there are certain things your parents dont teach you? I was drivin home the other day and i was thinking of all these things... and i was like why did i not know that?? but honestly i can't remember what they were. But some of them had to do with buying a house. One that I was thinkin about is when your at a 4way stop. those are the most awkward moments EVER!! Especially if you stop at the same time as someone else!!!! I ABSOLUTLY HATE THAT!!!! But you know what i do? I either stop really fast, so I stop before them.... Or i keep rolling for a long time.... so they stop before me. I always make it where we don't stop at the same time. haha. i'm a nerd. you know what. I think I'm OCD. really! Today, I rearranged my living room... yay! I love it. I have a new living room. haha. But it's so small you cant do much with it. I can't wait to buy a new house. Hey by the way G can whistle now!!!! she's so excited! She can also write her name and that makes her super happy also! Guess what else. I had a request to make some cakes the other day. and I made two! and I got money!!!! hahahahah! I stayed up til midnight on thursday night making them for friday BUT you know what I learned something and i actually enjoyed doing it. It definitly comes to you better with more experience. I remember the first cake OH MY GOSH I WAS SO MAD!!!!! It just gets easier and easier to get the icing smooth! How about I upload the pics of them... I actually got the icing smooth, it was so awesome! I did terrible on the writing but I will get that part figured out later. All that matters is I had fun. and the lady i made them for loved them, of course she wouldnt complain even if she hated them... haha! Such a sweet lady. Have you been by Eucha lately? OH MY GOSH now that's low! So i've been running lately! Isn't that weird. I want to run down the highway cuz its so much easier to run on the highway than on the gravel.... but i'm scared. i dont wanna be kidnapped.... or i guess it would be adultnapped now huh? hahah. I listen to my Music while running it's actually fun. I love loud music in my ears. I could run forever and never realize i was tired. that's what music does to me. The other day i turned it on and didnt realize it was so loud though and it about blew my eardrum up. We bought some zebu... they're like miniature bulls.... they're so cute. I think it would be so cool if we could train them like a horse.... they are wayyy crazy right now. but they're so tiny it wouldnt be hard to halter break them. You know the clowns at rodeos sometimes ride bulls like a horse. We have 2... i think itd be cool if both of our kids could ride their zebu like a horse! So in case you didnt know its about winter... i never wear shorts anymore unless i'm home... so if you come over and i'm in shorts... don't look at my legs! I am not shaving them. It's ridiculous to shave your legs when no one sees them... ok i might shave them in a day or two but gee why shave? It's a waste of time... just like let me tell you how bored i get brushing my teeth.... it's like the same thing EVERY MORNING!!! It gets soooooo old!!! That's why I brush my teeth in the shower whenever i can. it saves so much time! Ok i'm done i have to go make some buttercream icing... MMMMM!!!!

Just gonna tell you, you can subscribe to my blog by email! How fun!!!! I subscribed to it myself just to see what it'd do! It's pretty cool. But anyways the football game tonight was VERY good! I was driving home with my French vanilla cappuccino..mmmm...when I started thinking about how when I was young I always carried people's coffee and I ALWAYS spilled it on myself. Why did I carry people's coffee? I remember doing it a lot... But I don't remember why.... Anyways ciao!

Are you talkin bout me??

My ears are burning? What does that mean? someones thinking about me? talking about me? what's weird is, its only my right ear.... my left ear is cold. I've always heard people say "we were talking about you were your ears burning" I've never known what that meant? I thought it meant the inside of your ear... but my ear is burning and its like the top part ya know where people get them pierced? i mean its burning!!!! its so hot! This actually happened the other day also! maybe my hubby is thinkin about me! Aww! Ok so I have a weird obsession lately... when i deposit money into the bank... i have to make it an exact number! like no change... I add change to my deposit to make it a whole number. how weird is that. i noticed myself doing it the past 3 times i went to the bank. I'm like uhhh what am i doing? Ok so remember i'm deleting my facebook...? i havent yet because my scentsy page is how i get a lot of business!!!! So i made up a fake facebook and made my fake person administrator on my scentsy page. so now i will still keep my scentsy page! yay! but i will be writing on it as a different person. i just wont have any friends so i can't snoop thru  all the stuff! and i promise myself i won't look at anyones profiles! So parent/teacher conferences went amazing! I felt like i knew most of my parents this year and that makes it so much easier. I either knew them from previous children... or had to have lots of talks with them already.... HAHA! but all in all they went well. i was very pleased. It was actually my best parent/teacher conference ever. Well that's all I just felt like typing! :)

FACEBOOK!!!!!!

I pick up my Ipad first thing I do is click on facebook to see whats been going on today. Facebook here facebook there, facebook everywhere!!!!! FACEBOOK IS STUPID!!!! Here's my problem with facebook. #1 I'm just going to say i'm addicted. I know that you can limit yourself to when your on it and so on so forth. I don't want to limit it, i want to quit it. I have 2 kids at home who are only going to be little once. I should be spending the time with them instead of worrying about everybody elses life!! My #2 Problem with facebook is.... If something is going on in my "real" friends life, I shouldn't have to find out about it by reading it on a public forum. #3 you can delete someone from your facebook, but guess what? They are still there in walmart, or at school! Or even at your family reunion! Deleting someone will never solve a problem in itself. You shouldnt have to worry about your personal safety on a computer, and you should never have to worry about what other people think. You should be able to write or put what you want when you want. I like this blog because if people care about what i have to say they can read it here instead of people i barely know on facebook reading what i write. and finally #4 In almost every conversation i have, Facebook is brought up in that conversation. I feel like the world is revolving around freakin facebook! That just gets on my nerves so bad! I do like facebook being able to keep up with friends i went to college with and stuff, but i dont like finding things out on facebook that i should have found out in person or from that person to me! It may not last very long, but for now I'm going to try to focus on other things instead of everybody elses stuff. I'm too nosey for my own good. I love being nosey, but i feel like i have been too nosey sometimes. I hope you will follow my blog if you'd like to keep up with me! (which i may be back on facebook tomorrow hhahahahhahaha) One bad thing about getting rid of facebook is my scentsy business. I sell a lot of scentsy thru facebook! But I will give you all my phone number and hopefully you will text me! I may even have giveaways on my blog somehow. My conversations will no longer start with "did you see what ___________ put on facebook!!!" I'm sick of it. I do love facebook and I'm not sure what I'll do without it! HAHAHA! So if you need my number for scentsy please let me know. Maybe my blog will become more exciting also! I  may write more often maybe even put pictures. who knows! Maybe I'll just stray from communication altogether. lol. Next I should cut down on my texting... hahhaha NAH! It may be a day or two, but my facebook will be gone! I'd love to hear your opinions. And by no means would I ever put a person down because they have facebook. I honestly love facebook.... but it has made me become extremely nosey, and a little gossipy! Gossip is for the birds. But I feel like facebook has brought it further. Anyways I think you can follow my blog by email if you wanted! If you're not interesed thats fine too. I do like to keep in touch with my friends though. But my very very close friends I see almost every week anyways, so that's all I need! Thank you all for reading my blog! Maybe I can still feel special on here! LOL!

I've had a lot on my mind lately! But it all went away! haha! So first of all I'm going to invent a teacher toolbelt (tm) see i already have a patent! hahahaha! but really i really am. i spend half of my day looking for stuff. or maybe i could just be more organized. nahh you can be organized and still lose stuff. Teacher toolbelt it is. I can never find my pens!!! I lose them and can never find them. of course my pencil holder thing is FULL of pens and pencils and markers BUT I have my favorite ones and they are the only ones i use. therefore. i need a teacher toolbelt to put my pen in. along with bandaids.... oh and my center list. i always lose my center list at school. I would also put glue in it. i have a hard time finding my glue alot of the time. oh and tape! my whole classroom would be in my belt because apparently i lose everything. ok its not really that bad. mainly the pens. oh and in the winter time i would have tissue in it for the kiddos. nobody steal my idea ok. its gonna be too cool. so my masters.. hows that going? well its going good. i kinda love it. i have my own blog for that. we have to have a blog and she tells us what to put on it each week. we do like 4 assignments a week and thats it. its the same thing every week just over a different subject. we do a discussion board. and we have to comment on 2 other peoples. we have an essay to write and we do our blog. thats it. its kinda easy. just a little time consuming. i wrote a paper last night. I felt i did a very good job. it was about passion for our job. i had fun writing it. its kind of hard sometimes because you know how my runs so out of control, sometimes i have to slow myself down or ill be typing things that don't even need to be in there. haha. Ok serious talk. why are there country songs about exes, boyfriends, girlfriends, drinking, smoking, shooting, killin, blah blah blah.... how many songs do you hear about kids? hardly any. theres that one.... by that one guy.... about his kid had a happy meal and said a 4 letter word.... "My 4 year old said a 4 letter word, it started with s and i was concerned.... son whered you learn..." something something. and maybe a martina mcbride song... ok maybe there a few. but not very many at all. maybe famous people dont have kids? haha. so the other day i seen these people in walmart that i hadnt saw since i was like 14... i worked at the salebarn with them and the last time i saw them was when me and one of my ex boyfriends broke up... remember i was 14 hahahah! but i went to his football game anyways. isnt it funny that you can remember the last time you saw some people that mean the most to you. it was funny because i heard my name really quiet and i looked around and saw this old couple walking towards me and i was like OH MY GOSH!!!!!! and they started laughing and betty said "jim said that looks like shanda, so i told him to say your name kinda loud and see if you looked and if you did then it was you and if you didnt it wasnt!" hahahaha. you know i hate to hug people.... adults.... but i just hugged them and it was exciting. its exciting when you see someone you havent saw in a long time. you know what.... knock on wood... G has only been REALLY sick one time in her life and she was around 1..... she had a really high fever and it was just me and her... but she just laid on me for hours on end. i've never seen her that still. sick babies are so loving. Tonight she was throwing a fit.... and i swear it lasted an hour... i almost ran away(jk). It went from one thing to the next. first it was something i cant remember, then i moved the ipad so she wouldnt throw something on it, then she wanted the ipad, then the tv was too loud, then she wanted to call neena, then she wanted strawberries, then she wanted to jump on the trampoline.... it was a neverending cry! I mean nonstop cry for an hour and a half! she got plenty of spankins throughout this hour. i was so mad. but i told her she wasnt getting anything she wanted until she stopped crying.... and she kept saying why can't i do anything? hahahah i said ummm i said because you cant have anything until your done crying... then i kept saying can you hear me? can you hear me? she just kept screaming..... i said IF YOU STOP CRYING YOU CAN CALL NEENA, YOU CAN HAVE STRAWBERRIES, YOU CAN JUMP ON THE TRAMPOLINE. and shes still screaming..... i say can you hear me..... finally i was like ok apparently she cant even hear what im saying. so i started to ignore her. well then she got madder..... and says MOMMA........ MOMMA!!!! oh my gosh it was a long evening. the good thing is.... she hasnt had a fit like that in months... so i guess she was due for one... but good grief! an hour and a half??? really??? good night!

In case you can't tell.... I love to reminisce! Just now I was looking for something to watch on tv and I saw King of the Hill.. So i put it on there and just the music from the show reminds me of my stillwater days. Every afternoon at 630 I'd watch King of the Hill in my room in bed while i did homework! I looooved that show. It just seems to relax me. I miss stillwater. Ok this morning the worse thing EVER happened!!!!! I woke up and was talking to D and i all of a sudden realized that my retainer wasnt in my mouth! I started to freak out... (secret time... in case you didnt know.. my retainer has fake teeth on it! EEEEEEK) So I said OH MY GOSH!!!! and i looked on the night stand it wasnt there.. D looks in the bathroom i look in the kitchen. We looked everywhere. Well after about 10 minutes i remember i had got up in the middle of the night to pee and i heard something fall in the floor off of my shirt... and under the night stand... so i look under the night stand and there it was!! i was so rellieved! If I had lost my retainer, i couldnt go to work! I would probably cry and wouldnt go anywhere until a dentist could get me in... lol! I used to take it out to eat.. now i dont because im too afraid to lose it. I have bad dreams ALL the time! about losing or breaking my retainer. and its only broke once.. only one side of it. I've had it since January of 2007! so i've had it over 5 years and its only broke once and it was only a wire on the back so it didnt even hurt it. Ok so did anybody see my cake on facebook? HAHAHAHAH! Monday night we have to ice a cake and im kinda nervous about it. i feel that i should practice again but i dont wanna cook two more cakes.... when i still have this one left! I'm totally gonna embaress myself at class. So my online classes have started... so far so good. seems like it wont be too bad this time around. but im scared itll get tougher. its mainly introduction this week. i love the fact that i can look ahead all the way to week 8 and if i want to do it now I could go ahead and do it and have it saved! How cool is that?! and I have to make a blog!!! That's awesome!!!! I've decided I'm going into the shirt making business.... lol im ONLY KIDDING!!!! Isn't it weird how here lately I've been doing that.... Example: I wanna be a photographer. Another Example: I'm gonna make cakes... hahahahah! I just feel like i want to find more to do. anyways so i had to write a self portrait for one of my first assignments this week and Here's how it started... "Naptimes over, it's time to get up," my kindergarten teacher would say as we all woke up. As I rolled over, I looked to see if my Hershey's Kiss was beside me. I absolutly love this feeling! When we would go to sleep in Kindergarten Mrs. Stockton would put our candy beside us and when we'd wake up we'd be so excited to find it! I have been doing this in my class too. I'm tellin you i've never had a class nap like these guys. I have a younger group this year. But i started putting the candy beside them when they go to sleep and they LOVE to wake up and find their candy!!!! Just like I did. Mind you the good resters get candy too. They don't HAVE to go to sleep..... Anyways... hmmm. I'm already ready to get this masters thing out of the way. i wish you could just do it at your own speed.... and if you were slow it'd take you 10 years and if you were fast it'd take you 1 year..... that'd be awesome. I actually got approved for an unsubsidized loan... which is awesome... because one of these days i could get the teacher forgiveness and they will drop the rest of the loan.... and I'm volunteering for the YMCA in a couple weeks to get $3000 knocked off my tuition total... pretty cool! Welp Ciao!

This is gonne be a good one!

First off I want to start about yesterday! Yesterday was the weirdest day ever. I saw the weirdest things ever! First I heard the fire between colcord and west siloam on the scanner. And the guy was like yelling at the other guy. Then I was drivin thru colcord and all these trucks were at the fire department then there was this woman out in the front of the parking lot on the phone with her door open looking in her window at her vin number I guess. It just looked very strange. Then, I was driving on 412 back to Kansas and I saw this lady pulled over in a van... She jumped out of her car and was looking back down the highway and there was this other car back there with a guy out of the car too and she was like yelling at him... But she was wayyyy down the road. I don't know if she about hit him or what. Then I go in the store at twin oaks and this weird dude stares at me and says Hiiiiii How are you? HAHA! I almost busted up laughing. I just said good how are you and he took off out of the store. Then I got back outside and there was this one guy standing out of his truck then he got in and turned his hat around backwards. Then this other guy got in the drivers side of his car, then got out and got back in on the passengers side. It was very very weird. Then I'm in Gentry getting gas and there's this guy trying to push his vehicle across the parking lot. I woulda offered help but don't think I could push his truck..... anyways it was just very weird. Today I saw a jet ski on lake Eucha! Now that is weird. I dont think thats even legal. Anyways so today i was driving to Wal-mart and it was so peaceful cuz G had fallen asleep (FINALLY!!!) and so I'm listening to this Sugarland song "Already Gone" which brings back crazy icky thoughts from the past. I love that song but i hate it so much! The first time I caught the douche bag cheating on me, this song came on the radio. and i just listened to it a whole bunch. You know when your emotional and you will listen to a song over and over just so you can cry (ok maybe im the only one that does that). Well thats what i did then. It definitly doesnt make me cry now but then it did. and now i just hate it. but i love it. But i was thinkin about all these times i was so foolish. One time i was at a softball game and this girl was playing on our team and everybody kept apologizing to me about asking her to play while i was playing too... I was like oh no big deal I could care less. well i asked idiot why everyone kept saying they were sorry and of course he said i dont know...... well yea come to find out way way way way way way way after the fact I guess he was screwing her too... hmm. Then this other time when I was like 8 months prego (I will not mention names) but these 2 people (boyfriend and girlfriend) came over. Well they decide to take off on my dirtbike and our fourwheeler. Well moron and the girl were on the fourwheeler today and the other dude drove my dirt bike. Well they were gone FOREVER!!! and i kept goin outside and listening to see if they were coming yet. Well like an hour later they get back and the dude is bleeding.... So they said he wrecked my dirtbike, because he swirved to miss a cow. This was like 11 o clock at night by the way. So then the dude and the girl are fighting and i have no idea why. But dumb butt just says they are fighting cuz the dude is drunk. Well so the girl and dumb butt are outside FOREVER! She's sitting in the car and hes talking to her. While the other dude is sitting in the house. Well then a day or two later someone tells me that dill weed's brother told her that he took a girl to the creek on the fourwheeler and screwed her. Then it all sinks in!!!!! This is how good moron is..... He gets caught, gets in a fight. Then tries to scratch up my dirt bike and say that the dude wrecked it! and that's how nieve i was! The girl that told me that I said that's not true. whatever. well then after the fact of me finally catching him in all the other lies i realize OH MY GOSH!!!! THATS WHAT HAPPENED!!! geez don't you just love it when you wake up and figure things out. I can think of another incident or two where i think hello me! Duh! Now I'm hearing that there's some stuff going on with the girl hes married to now and it just makes me sick because I know how good he is at brain washing people. And She is gonna think everything he's doing is ok. Someday he's gonna find a woman that will beat him back and throw stuff at him. Hopefully it'll be a cast iron skillet!!! HA! oh and the sad part is... he's doing it in front of his kids and they're the ones telling that he's doing it! super sad. that's why my child goes nowhere near him. And as far as i'm concerned, she never will. I think I would run away, far far away and get arrested before i let that happen. He can definitly make me sound like a bad person BUT he's psycho. Why are all my blogs about this certain person? I should stop that. But sometimes I just get so frustrated with my choices that I just need to yak it out somewhere before i blow up! I actually think that's exactly why I needed a blog. sometimes i fume and fume about how STUPID COULD I BE??? But thank God it has turned out like it has. So today I get like $300 worth of groceries (GOOD GOSH!!!) and I get home with all these bags and I'm like ok wheres all this crap gonna go. So I start cleaning out the cabinets and there's things in there dated from like 2010 I'm like ok this has to go! So now my cabinets are all clean and there's plenty of room! So maybe I won't have to buy groceries for a year now! Except I get home and I'm making biscuits and gravy and I have no stick butter. Isn't that lovely! Gah I hate when I forget something. I love when I feel like I clean something though. haha! i used to love to clean. I would keep my moms house clean for a whole week and she'd pay me like $20 a week. it was so awesome. Now I kinda hate to clean. I have to be in the mood. You know what else i remembered today. I was drivin by the show barn in jay and I remembered like 8 years ago when i turned 18, the show started on my birthday and we had to load our calves and take them up there. Well i went to school for a bit cuz it was my bday then at like 9 i left and i hurried to andersons to buy a can of skoal!!! just because i could! I could not wait to get up that morning so I could go buy some skoal. ha how dumb. but with that.... im out!