Right now my mind is about to blow up!!!!! I have never been this stressed out!!!! I have to write a blog post because i have an assignment due in 2 hours that I havent even started on.... the reading is like 40 some pages long and i havent read that either..... wanna know why? because every night at bed time my child decides she wants to be a demon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am very angry...... if you can't tell. I just started my new class on monday...... so monday night i get g in bed come in here and start trying to do my work and she just out of the blue starts SCREAMING at the top of her lungs at me. this probably lasts til about 10:00......... same thing on tuesday..... tonight she got in bed at 830 and was having a fit until just now. 9:50..... i CANNOT handle this child!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok actually i can. but sometimes she is so out of control that i lose my temper and i say things i shouldnt say. i have never been so stressed out. it started about 2 weeks ago.... and at the drop of a hat.. she goes from happy.... to a child i've never seen in my life. Some of you probably think i'm crazy.... but if you could see the way she acts you would want me to take her to a psychyatrist... or something like that. Once she starts.. she doesn't stop until she throws up or scratches her face...... and they usually last about an hour or an hour and a half. One would say... just ignore her...... BUT it's hard to ignore a screaming kid when you are trying to read a book. plus when they hurt, you hurt.... it's like shes a newborn all over again..... it's like shes crying but she has no idea why shes crying..... and neither do i.... sympathy doesn't work... i bawl and she sees me bawling and she cries cause i'm crying but then after a while she'll just start all over again screaming at me. I pray every night for it to get better or for something to change... but it only seems to be getting worse. Today she had such a good day too. Me and D told her this could be her First day ever to NOT CRY!!!!.... well werent we wrong... after trick or treating was over we were heading home and she starts screaming that shes hungry.... then we get home and she plays for a while then the screaming begins. so she almost had a good day. i had her a sticker chart also,.... when she was good she got stickers... we've been doing that for about 2 weeks... well tonight i ripped it down because i told her she didnt deserve stickers.... i can't find anything that worse.... One may say... spank her..... well that only makes her madder and makes the fit last longer. I gaurantee you she's had more whoopins than probably any 4 year old on this earth.... just because of her attitude. ok now that i've got that off my mind... maybe i'll try to write my paper............ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!