Honey, I love your love, the most!

Ok.......... this one may be a little sappy and sad............ So... You never know how much you take for granted until you almost lose something that means so much to you.... like my blankey... i lost my blankey! HA JUST KIDDING!!! I briefly told you on facebook my hubby was in an accident. So here's what happend. He was brushhogging on a hill on the turnpike when he turned and started going down a hill, tractor popped out of gear and flew to the bottom of the hill, throwing him out of the tractor.... I heard when the guys got down there he was face down in the rocks.... i may have died if i would have found him like that.... i would never want to find anybody like that. anyways he was unconscious. Long story short he got stitches and 14 staples in the back of his head, and stitches in his face under his eyes with lots of bangs, scratches and bruises. Also a severe concussion. He's moving around well today... especially compared to when we left the hospital and he was about to fall over walking out of there. Don't tell anyone i said this but me and my dad were fishing and when i got a call and then called to find out what happened.... we turned around and hightailed the boat ALL THE WAY TO THE OTHER END OF EUCHA! I didn't want to cry because you know there's those things that won't let you cry when certain people are around... yea my dad is one of them.... I've only seen him cry once in my life at his sisters funeral and hope i never see him cry again... but I feel like he doesn't need to see me cry either.... lol! weird i know... but when I got in my truck and headed for the hospital i bawled all the way there..... just thinking... what if he doesn't make it? what if he's not ok? I was so relieved to walk in the ER and see his eyes open! I just wanted to bawl from relief. So today, he's well. Very very achy and sore. We actually went to town to buy some new shoes for the kids and he did well except for when i hit a bump.... it hurt him really bad. his ribs and insides are killing him.... but overall i must say wayyyyy better. Now... here's the bad part... today.... i kept telling him i wanted to go see the tractor and i don't think he wanted me too or he didn't want to or something, but finally we went down there.... and it was at the bottom of this MONSTER hill throught the fence in some rocks..... that's when it hit me how bad it really could have been....... i mean it was bad.. but he's so lucky to be alive! the front axle on the tractor is by the back tire..... i just got such a sick feeling from seeing it. it was terrible. I just couldn't imagine what he was thinking when it happened. But I've been home with him ever since it happened on Friday. We were home all day saturday and then today we went to town. He wants to go to work tomorrow but I DONT WANT HIM TO!!!! I don't want him to leave. I feel like a little kid who's mommy is about to leave her at school! I don't want to let him go!!!!!!!!! I need him by my side!!!!!! Let me tell you this... He never wants me to lay right by him... but earlier he said i'm gonna come lay by you... and he tried to get up but he couldn't and he said well maybe you can come lay by me.... it was the sweetest thing ever! i said awwww you never want me to lay by you!!!!!!!! that's so sweet!!! hahaha. corny but you just gotta know him.... I can't let go of his hand. I feel asleep last night right beside him holding his hand. I'm gonna cry when he leaves. HOpefully theyll send him home! I told him I was going with him cuz he couldn't drive.... but i dont think i can stop him. i dont want him to go!!!!!!!!!!! It should be the law that after something this drastic happens that the person must stay with their spouse for at least a week! maybe a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways the point is Today I'm a very thanksful person. What would i do without my husband???? I thought about that all the way to the hospital! Of course you always think the worst even if it isnt the worse. It could have easily been worse. But Praise God it wasn't! Ok now my homework is done... I better go slave some more and take him a Popsicle! HAHAHAHA!

Guess what time it is?????!!!!!

HOMEWORK TIME!!!!!!!!!!! And this time i've waited even later than usual! because tonight its a hard one. So while I'm NOT DOING MY HOMEWORK... let me tell you my complaints now...... who made the decision that women do the "housework"? It's ridiculous. Apparently women have to do the things that are repetitive... and men do things that change. I get sick of this laundry, dishes, cooking, dishes, sweeping, cooking, dishes, laundry, cooking dishes, picking up after everybody, laundry, cooking, dishes........... get it... yea its the same thing over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over..... while the men sit on the couch and watch tv. I guess what they do is repetitive to... lets see...... eat, dirty their clothes, throw their clothes in the floor, eat, sit on the couch watch tv, throw some socks in the couch, popsicle wrappers in the window seal or floor, eat, dirty some more clothes, sit on the couch again........ if they wouldn't do that stuff, women wouldn't have to do their repetitve stuff. ok so i'm not griping, i just think it's funny. my husband does work and is never home actually because he works all the time. but when he is home that's what happens... lol. It's just weird how when I'm doing laundry or dishes and I think didnt i just do this??????? haha. buying groceries is stupid too. Here's what i need: a green house, a milk cow, and some steers to butcher ever now and then. But someone would have to teach me how to grow hominy because thats about all my husband eats.... that, potatoes and meat! but i would love to be able to grow tomatoes, potatos, squash and green beans year round. that would be so cool! I'd never have to grocery shop! And I HATE milk, i only need it to cook with. i think i could live off of meat, potatos and tomatos. yea that would be cool. anyways. i cant even grow those things when they're supposed to be growed so i probly couldnt do it in a green house either.... lol! So drop dead diva is back on FINALLY YAYYYYY! TV has been pretty boring the past couple of weeks because I only watch bachelorette mondays, voice whatever night it comes on and that was it! I need army wives to be on sundays, bachelorette monday, voice whatever nights, teen mom 2 whatever night that came on, greys anatomy thursdays. Yea i love my tv. but only the good shows, thats the only time i watch it. I do watch it at night and i've been watching LMN.... hahahah awesome lifetime movies!!!!!!! They keep me up til 1AM! I start watching the 11:00 one and its over at 1............ so needless to say for the past month I've not been going to sleep until about 2 AM.... haha thats baaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. what am i gonna do when school starts back? i guess i can try to go to bed early but who knows if thats possible. luckily g has been sleepin til at least 9 everyday and sometimes later. i kinda hate summer. i've been so bored! i need a job. I just run around all the time. i haven't been home at ALL! i need to do more swimming though thats for sure. my arms are the only place i'm tan at. I NEEEEEEEEEEEEED TO TAN!!!!!! ok. im about out of stuff. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I DONT WANNA DO HOMEWORK! hey good thing is this is week 7... next week is the last week of the class and the hard assignment for next week is just this weeks assignment revised... so if i do good this week i wont have much at all to do next week.... hmmmm i should get busy. ok im done then .......... i guess......... but i dont wanna be..................... i guess i should stop.......... and do my homework......... nooooooooooooooooooo

don't read this or you may cry... it just so happened to do that to me!

Ok I'm selfish. You know why? Well I heard that my papaw (Dow) was really sick (like deathly)... and yea it makes me cry. I am selfish because I can't even imagine going and seeing him the way he is. I can still remember watching the video tape at christmas time when ma maw was alive and we were waiting for dow to bring in the presents and we were all chanting "papaw papaw papaw" such a sweet memory. I can't imagine distorting that image of him. It would make me sad to see him in the harvest house not being very healthy too. I am selfish because I know if i went over there to see him that I would just BAWL!!!! I'm crying just writing this..... I can't see what use it would be of me going to see him... because it would just be a pity party for myself. ok so i had to take a break. for some reason i have this thing that i can't let people see me cry... i started bawling so i had to go take a shower so no one would see me. that's another thing if i went over there i would be all baby.... but you know i'm sure there are a lot of people like this. Here's the deal... i havent even been that close to him in the past several years. i would hug him when i saw him and everything but i never went to see him. let me explain that part.... That house (i guess he still lives in the same house) reminds me of my mamaw. I think i was only like 5 or 6 or 4 i really dont even know, but i remember after she died we went over there and i got to pick out a stuffed animal of hers and i still have it. For some reason I got the ugliest one ever but yes i still have it! Just like everytime i get on an elevator.... i ALWAYS and i mean EVERY TIME, i think about mamaw... because i can just remember going to the hospital to see her and riding on the elevator and my little tummy tickled. I don't even remember going in the room to see her or anything like that... i ONLY remember the elevator. just like the house... i only remember christmastime and us chanting for papaw to bring the presents out and the time i got to go pick out an animal... There's one more thing i remember about that place... when my aunt anita lived there and I guess she was about to move or something my dad went over there and killed a dog for her that she couldn't take with her i guess... i remember anita just bawling.... and then i can remember him shooting it and then taking his hat off, pulling his pants down and putting his hat over his butt (this is something only MY DAD would do!!!!) hahahah! I haven't even been down that road since those times. I drove by it once and I'm like now i don't remember that road being like that.... anyways just some memories. OH how they make me cry... and I better stop or i'm gonna get caught! I know that he has kids and a wife that love him dearly and may not like what i'm saying.... surely they won't mind right? I do love him and I know they love him so much and are suffering dearly... bless their hearts. But those are my memories and I think I'll just stick with them.... I love you Dow David! Ok I posted but had to go back and add some...... Some people didn't even know I was "related" to dow... so let me explain how... and what it got me thinking.... My dad's mom was married to Dow before she died... so he was like my step-grandpa.... we called him papaw.. and my dad's mom we called mamaw... OK so when i was in the shower i was thinking... I am an ex-step-mom to two little boys... would I want them to come see me if i was dying?? hmmm makes ya think right? It's not about me... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHh I HAVE TO STOP!!!!!!!! GOOD NIGHT!

Just a little venting... not too much...

Ok so where shall I start? people who don't pay me back? people who whine and gripe all the time? people who act to be a Christian but still do certain things? or those freaky helicopters that fly right above your house? hmmmmmmmm should I keep going? Ok first of all.... if you owe me money and I've asked you nicely to pay me back two or three times, i'm not going to ask anymore, I will just write it down as a loss on my part. Even thought it's a hundred plus dollars... but I'm telling you when I see you putting something on facebook about someone ripping you off or taking your money, I must refrain from commenting.... UMMMM THAT'S WHAT YOU GET!!!!! I do know that sometimes people can't get the money to pay you back, but hey just say I'm sorry I don't have the money right now? or possibly I will never pay you back, but I can return your product to you, that will work too. But the whole "ignore me" thing just doesnt set right with me. And here's another one.... "I've been trying to break a $20 to get change so I could mail it" really?? you're not supposed to send cash in the mail and I know you're not that stupid! This person owes me like $28 and told me several times he will try to send it soon, he just hasn't had time. Yet, they have time for facebook? When i se them post EVERYTIME i just wanna comment... "umm can you please take one moment and put my money in an envelope and send it to me" but ya know what oh well.... it's always the people you think you can trust that you CANT! but i guess life goes on. God forgives... so can i right? but..... GIVE ME MY MONEY!!!!!! lol. ok that vent is over. I still really like both of those people by the way. I never see them anyways, but if i did i'd still say hi and act like nothing was wrong because that's how i am. I'm afraid to ask people after I've already asked them that many times, i feel like i'm never gonna get it anyways. ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOOOOOO you know what else i hate? people who whine and gripe ALLLLLLL THE TIME!!!!!!!!! if its not one thing its the next (sounds kinda like me huh?) haha! The only difference is I whine and and gripe in a blog post so people only read it if they want to... they aren't forced to read it on their news feed!!! I'm not like this.... It's cold... I whine... it's hot... I whine.... (ok maybe i do... lol) anyways.............today must be one of those annoyed type of days. Maybe i'm annoying but GUESS WHAT???? YOU CHOSE TO READ THIS!!!!!!!!!! I DIDN'T FORCE YOU TOO!!!!!!! SO DON'T TALK ABOUT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH ONLY KIDDING. talk about me if you please. just don't let it get back to me or i will talk about you.... haha! You know what I noticed the last time i wrote a blog post? I read it the next morning and realized exactly how random i was.... I went from one thing to the next without even finishing the last thing i was talkin about. wow my mind... crazy thing i tell ya. hold on let me look on facebook and see if i can find something else to gripe about..OH I DID!!!!! I just seen that there is a sherri thomason on facebook and she has a profile picture??? I bet her daughter did that! That sherri thomason lady told me she would NEVER have a facebook!!!!!!!!!!!!!! um um um sherri!!!!!!!! You know what else.... the last time someone told me something would never happen... that happened also........... um um um..... A.T...... ok back to real life. ok actually in real life i have nothing to talk about.... lets go back to imaginary life.... I have a headache...... OH YEA!!!!!! GUESS WHAT I DID LAST NIGHT?????????? Remember last night was wednesday... and my homework is due on sundays... I DID ALL OF MY HOMEWORK!!!!!! I'm done like 4 days early? that never happens im gonna have to try that again next week. I don't have to sit in front of the computer sunday night for 4 hours trying to do my assignments. I only have 1 thing left to do, but i can't do it until the other people post their stuff so i can comment on it. that's what suck i have to wait on other people to do it and they wait til last minute... lol. Who does that? WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD WAIT UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE TO DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!! oh yea.... i would... ok moral of the story........ *If i owe you money... please tell me.. i would never not pay someone back on purpose.... *If you're whiny and gripy on facebook, I'm deleting you... i mean only if its constant... if it's just sometimes, i'll let it slide because we are all whiny and gripy sometimes but not ALL the time! *NEVER SAY NEVER!!!! *DO YOUR HOMEWORK EARLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hey that was kinda cool... it was like at the end of a chapter in a textbook and it gives you a summary... now i just need some review questions.......... lol

yabba dabba doo!

oh my gosh its been so long! not really.... but it feels that way! Tonight I got my homework done before 6:00! Isn't that wonderful! I looked at my homework for the rest of this class and it didn't look bad. only 4 weeks left! And guess what? Still all perfect grades! That last professor had a problem...... that's right she was mean! anyways so As i was doing laundry earlier i was thinking...... Remember the day they said the storms were going to be really bad. They kept saying it was like a powderkeg..... yea and i was up until 230 AM? and it barely rained? but well I stayed the night at my moms that night because it was supposed to be really bad ya know? So before I left home I made sure I cleaned... dishes, floors (swept and mop), laundry.... and then i thought about it... If a tornado were to hit my house i WOULD NOT want my dirty underwear to be seen! HAHAHAHAHA! so I made sure all the clothes in the house were clean!!! anyways but then i got some stuff and got ready to leave and i was thinking oh man what if this is the last time i see this house standing?? I mean we had tons of warning that it was gonna be bad... those moore people had little warning... and it defintely got us to see what could really happen.... so see there's God..... It happened there... and now we are all VERY PREPARED for when we have a chance of tornados like that. He's saving our lives.... I stayed the night at my moms for no reason.... it didn't get bad at all. now the night before on the other hand was very scary... we even got in the cellar! and i can only remember one time before being that scared when i was a kid... and we had to go to the milk barn because thats all we had.... now lets talk about the night before... yea it was fun! This is why God creates these situations.... let me tel you why... you know EVERYONE used to know there neighbors... walk to the neighbors and ask for flour.... well now noone knows their neighbors... (or at least i really kinda dont) (well actually i do) (HAHAHAHA) anyways my mom and dad had all the neighbors on top of their hill in their cellar.... let me tell you what all led up to this... first it was just me mom and the woman neighbor... dad and the woman neighbors husband were outside... well it started POURING and HAILING they were about to come in but i guess they decided not to and the door SLAMMED close and busted my eardrums.... then they got in there... we had the door locked... just 6 of us.... well dad was talkin about that old tree falling right on the door and us not being able to get out... and then all of a sudden BANG..... BANG BANG..... BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG! then finally we realized it was someone trying to get in! HAHAHA. at first i was like omg... theres a tornado and stuff is hitting the door! well we opened it they get in and stink like wet rain ya know cuz they been running in the rain.. haha! and then it gets really muggy in there and im about to pass out because theres too many people in such a small space and oh my gosh it was just terrible.... but i lived... thats the good part. overall it was fun. Then we had to go drive around and look at the damage before i went home... anyways it was fun... let me tell you i like an adrenaline rush... its like playing in a state championship basketball game! what a thrill! speaking of basketball.... i had a dream that night that i was playing softball.... and i was catcher and i had to get all my gear on but for some reason i didn't have my cleats on and coach odle was already yelling at me... and then i stepped on a piece of glass.. and part of it came out and then i put my foot down on the cement to wipe some blood off (while he was still yelling at me) i really put my foot down so he could see the blood but i dont think he cared.... well then i looked again and the glass was still there.... well then i couldn't even walk... then i woke up... and you know what???? MY FOOT HURT SOOOOOOO BAD!!!!!!!!! but you know it was only my imagination. ok im done i guess