Honey, I love your love, the most!

Ok.......... this one may be a little sappy and sad............ So... You never know how much you take for granted until you almost lose something that means so much to you.... like my blankey... i lost my blankey! HA JUST KIDDING!!! I briefly told you on facebook my hubby was in an accident. So here's what happend. He was brushhogging on a hill on the turnpike when he turned and started going down a hill, tractor popped out of gear and flew to the bottom of the hill, throwing him out of the tractor.... I heard when the guys got down there he was face down in the rocks.... i may have died if i would have found him like that.... i would never want to find anybody like that. anyways he was unconscious. Long story short he got stitches and 14 staples in the back of his head, and stitches in his face under his eyes with lots of bangs, scratches and bruises. Also a severe concussion. He's moving around well today... especially compared to when we left the hospital and he was about to fall over walking out of there. Don't tell anyone i said this but me and my dad were fishing and when i got a call and then called to find out what happened.... we turned around and hightailed the boat ALL THE WAY TO THE OTHER END OF EUCHA! I didn't want to cry because you know there's those things that won't let you cry when certain people are around... yea my dad is one of them.... I've only seen him cry once in my life at his sisters funeral and hope i never see him cry again... but I feel like he doesn't need to see me cry either.... lol! weird i know... but when I got in my truck and headed for the hospital i bawled all the way there..... just thinking... what if he doesn't make it? what if he's not ok? I was so relieved to walk in the ER and see his eyes open! I just wanted to bawl from relief. So today, he's well. Very very achy and sore. We actually went to town to buy some new shoes for the kids and he did well except for when i hit a bump.... it hurt him really bad. his ribs and insides are killing him.... but overall i must say wayyyyy better. Now... here's the bad part... today.... i kept telling him i wanted to go see the tractor and i don't think he wanted me too or he didn't want to or something, but finally we went down there.... and it was at the bottom of this MONSTER hill throught the fence in some rocks..... that's when it hit me how bad it really could have been....... i mean it was bad.. but he's so lucky to be alive! the front axle on the tractor is by the back tire..... i just got such a sick feeling from seeing it. it was terrible. I just couldn't imagine what he was thinking when it happened. But I've been home with him ever since it happened on Friday. We were home all day saturday and then today we went to town. He wants to go to work tomorrow but I DONT WANT HIM TO!!!! I don't want him to leave. I feel like a little kid who's mommy is about to leave her at school! I don't want to let him go!!!!!!!!! I need him by my side!!!!!! Let me tell you this... He never wants me to lay right by him... but earlier he said i'm gonna come lay by you... and he tried to get up but he couldn't and he said well maybe you can come lay by me.... it was the sweetest thing ever! i said awwww you never want me to lay by you!!!!!!!! that's so sweet!!! hahaha. corny but you just gotta know him.... I can't let go of his hand. I feel asleep last night right beside him holding his hand. I'm gonna cry when he leaves. HOpefully theyll send him home! I told him I was going with him cuz he couldn't drive.... but i dont think i can stop him. i dont want him to go!!!!!!!!!!! It should be the law that after something this drastic happens that the person must stay with their spouse for at least a week! maybe a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways the point is Today I'm a very thanksful person. What would i do without my husband???? I thought about that all the way to the hospital! Of course you always think the worst even if it isnt the worse. It could have easily been worse. But Praise God it wasn't! Ok now my homework is done... I better go slave some more and take him a Popsicle! HAHAHAHA!