What a day!!!!! Oh my gosh! Didn't we just start pre-k last week. Where in the world does time go? Holy cow. And I know the summer will fly by. Actually I bet it will drag by.... Bt it will fly at the same time. Weird how time can do that huh....? So guess what I've been doing lately.... Oh yea thinkng! I do a lot of that all the time and I have these awesome ideas... Sometimes. Sometimes they're not so awesome!! First of all let me tell you, tonight I patted Gracie to sleep about 830.... She went to sleep in like 5 minutes! It was awesome.. That hasn't happened in ages!!! Usually it's like 11 before she goes to sleep. So every night I Lay in bed because I think I'm so tired..... Well then I can't go to sleep...... So I lay in bed and think.... Until at least like midnight.... These crazy things run through my mind. Let me tell you the main one.... MEN!!!! HAHAHAHA! Jk. Kind of. I've never been in a relationship at all with a man who went to church..... I mean I have had men go to church because I want them to... Even had one get baptized with me.... Apparently that wasn't real.... Gahhhhh men can be soooo fake!!!! I will never make a man go to church with me..... They should already have that foundation built... Of course then there's me... I haven't been going to church because I just haven't found a place I belong yet.... I kind of have.... But .... Well just but.... Haha. My mom tells me all the time, next time you get a man I hope he is in church... Once upon a time a long long time ago i mean a really king time ago I went to church to chase boys..... Haha! I'm afraid that will happen again and that's why I haven't been going to church. Sometimes my mind gets focused in things they shouldn't be focused on. And you know what? I can admit that. There are people that wouldn't admit that, but I will. Church would be a good place to find a man, but I don't want that to be the reason I'm in church... Next. I love churches that sing loud ! Trinity has THE BEST song service EVER!!!!!! I've never experienced any singing that good in my life and the singing is super loud I looooooove it!!! I will say that's not the only reason I haven't been going to church, I can think of a lot of excuses, the main one is I'm too lazy... But also my daughter is a nuisance when she has to be quiet, and she won't go to kids church... Because she needs her mommy. I know if I made her start going she would be fine, but it don't want to make her go yet..... I would cry. I want her to like church but she hates it when she has to sit out there with me. I went to church last Wednesday and she went in the kids church by herself for like 5 minutes, then she came out looking for me.... But she wasn't crying!!! That's a start!!!!! Right?! If I could just find that 1 place I belong and loooooooooove going to and Gracie loves going to, my life would be perfect. Anyways. Sometimes I lay in bed at night and just wish I had someone to talk to because I have so much to say..... .. Blah blah blah. Boooooo hooooooo. Omg I just got thieves oil in my eye.... I think I'm going to. DIe!!!!!!! I talk all the time ya know... Sometimes I say things I shouldn't say..... Sometimes I'm rude..... Sometimes I'm loud and obnoxious, you know what if i say or do something to. Hurt anyone's feelings please know I didn't mean it. Sometimes my mouth is just out if control....... HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! But you know what else, sometimes I'm quiet...... And when I should stand up for things I don't.... Because I don't want to hurt others feelings.. I would let myself get run over and hurt before I would hurt someone else. Sometimes it's hard to keep my mouth shut. But I have to. Anyways. Enough of my mouth! I guess I'm done because it's too hard to. Type on the iPad and for some reason this won't open on my computer! Ahhhhh GOOD NIGHT!!!