Some people just make me fume! Can you see the smoke coming out of my ears? Why why why would u tell your kids who you do/ do not like? I'm not going to say too much. But seriously... If you don't like me, I don't give a rip but don't be telling your children that. I have actually tried to get along with this person... Even spoke in an awkward situation.. But apparently it was a waste of my breathe. Never again will I waste my breathe on you! Maybe about you, but definitely not to a 3 or a 6 year old. That's ridiculous! Ok anyways off my anger issue.... I'd like to say ALOT more but I might have to put a password on my blog if I did that. Hahaha. Next I'd like to talk about how much effect past experiences have on your life! So let's talk about 4 years ago. 4 years ago I had 2 little boys around every day almost that I got to hang out with! Allllll day! I never went anywhere... I always stayed home with them and took care of them and their every need. I took them to their momma or else I went with the devil to take them back. Never ever did it bother me. I was never jealous, never scared, never nervous, never nothing.... I was Normal. It was like I was going to eat lunch with my friend..... Normal! Well it just so happens I haven't saw those boys in almost a year... And I only saw them then because of their mother.... Good thing I never hated her... Lol. Now let's talk about these days..... I CANNOT stand to go with d to take p back.... It makes me sick! I mean it's not even a normal sick.... Nt jealous, not scared not any of that.... Just sick! My heart will beat 9-0 if I go with him! I just get feelings of hatred! Not towards anybody.... Just a sickening feeling! It's honestly unexplainable. I have no idea what does it to me. My hear beats so fast then when we are n our way home I will just want to cry.... This is why you will never see me with d to meet p's mom..... That's why I've only been 2 maybe 3 times! And Dustin doesn't understand... Why I'm so quiet on the way back... And he thinks I'm mad about something... But I just keep my mouth shut and don't talk.... Honestly I don't know how to explain it. All I can say is it makes me sick! Isn't it weird how you think some things could NEVER happen to you! I will never get a divorce! Especially if there is a kid involved..... Ok well that got threw out the window! I tried so hard to make it work and my parents about disowned me for it...... When I thought everyone would disown me because I was getting a divorce. Turns out I was the stupid one.... Lol! I've had so much on my mind lately but just haven't has time to stop and type! I got my new camera today! I absolutly love it. I'd really like to try to take someone's pics.... I'd even do it for free several times until i got good at it(or didn't get good At it.. Haha)! Here's a story for ya... We were leaving the other day... And the dogs were in the drive stuck together... Ya know breeding haha. Well so I say kids look over there at that bird or cat or something I don't remember what I said..... Anyways they both looked didn't see the dogs... Well a day or so later we were coming home they were stuck together again by the mailbox and I point in the opposite direction... Well g is the only one that looks... P is looking at the dogs and he says hey dad look their legs are tangled up !!! Hahahahhahahahhahahahah talk about funny!!!! Let's talk About happy now.... The other day g was asking weird questions... We were talkin about our old house and then we moved here and Paul has always lived here... And g said well how did Paul get here? I said from daddy.... She said no who built him? I said his dad... She said .. He came out of daddy's belly? I said no he came out of his moms belly... She said noooooo Jesus built Paul!!!! Awwwwww isn't that precious!!! Let's talk about this... Gas prices... Just think.. Every week or couple of weeks.. It costs $50 to fill up the vehicle... So let's say every 2 weeks $50.... 52 weeks in a year.... 26 x $50 = $1300... That's 1300 a year in gas.. I'm sure I spend more than that... And others spend wayyyyy more than that! Thats a lot of money! In a year or two you could buy a 4 wheeler with that money! Then add up the price of your vehicle....$ 19,000! Think of how much money you'd have if you still rode a horse to work... Or walked or biked! That's why people in new York are so rich!!!! Hahahaha! Or even a electric car... Even if they only went 10 mph... So cares look at how much money you'd save! We bought a new house phone and guess what.... We now have an answering machine on our home phone!!!!! How exciting!! I'm like a grown up now! Haha! Ok so Sean went home on the bachelorette tonight! Really???? That's mean! He was the best! You know who's gonna win? Jef! She just has a physical attraction to arie.... That's all I think... Nothing else. All they do is kiss! He tells her something charming then they kiss! Yep it takes more then that! I hate being a woman... You know why? You always fall for the bad guys first until you learn your lesson! Grrr! Ok let me know if your reading my blog! I enjoy knowing... Good night!