OH MAN! Isn't it crazy how fast christmas came this year. I mean thanksgiving was over then all of a sudden it was christmas. I was terrible at gift shopping this year. Maybe I will do better next year except next year it will probably come quicker. I hear the older you get the faster it goes :( how sad. Ok so for Christmas my husband bought me the movie "pitch perfect" because i tried to rent it 2 nights ago and they didnt have it. well he bought it. It was so nice to come home from dinner and sit down and we watched it together while the kids played and there was some funny parts i had to rewind for them to watch cause it was so funny. i absolulty love that movie!!!!! it was so good. anyways i rented the movie the cabin in the woods the other night it was SOOOOOOOO WEIRD!!! DO NOT RENT IT!!!!!!!!!! unless you want to be weirded out... thats up to you! haha. So I've been thinking a lot lately... everytime i look at g i think.. oh my gosh... she came out of me.... i made her!!!!!! how weird is that. she is so beautiful, she definitly has her faults but i could just stare at her all day because I MADE HER!!!! i mean God made her... BUT i made her... how weird. But really you should take time to stare at your children sometime... you will be amazed! It makes me appreciate her so much more when I sit and think about all I've been through.. for her... all the things I avoid... for her... all the things I don't do... for her! I've come so far to be here now and she is probably what got me thru and kept me sain... because i've been thru insanity and back! and now i'm even better because of it. My husband can definitly make me mad sometimes... BUT when I think of what I've been thru i can get over it really fast! I will never let a man run over me again and never let a man pull me down so far to make me feel like i'm nothing. i may be nothing... but to someone i am something... to Gracie.. I am the world!!!! Praise God for her! She may tell me I'm mean a hundred times a day... but in the end she still loves me.. no matter what! It's like children are little Jesus'... hahah sounds weird BUT they love everyone and no matter what happens they still love you! Amazes me everyday! Ok now on to my next story of the day! We bought G a hello kitty karaoke machine... you can plug your ipod, ipad, iphone or put a cd into it! and it turns up pretty loud... so you know who will be playing on it when she's home alone? MEEE ME ME!!!! I'm so excited for D to go to work tomorrow! You can put 2 microphones in it too! So i need another one so me and g can sing together. otherwise she will not get a turn! hahaha. But she is pretty good. I may upload a video to facebook later cuz she is a really good singer! haha. this is how professional singers start out ya know. for a 4 year old I'd say shes started off pretty good! So TWO WEEKS OFF FROM COLLEGE CLASSES!!!!!!!!!! hard part is after being out of the routine for 2 weeks it may be hard to get back in the routine... maybe i should take a break from my masters... hahahah jk! i have 6 hours down and 24 to go! That means I'm not toooo far. I was closer than i was when i started. always gotta look on the positive side! You know what... i wanna be a little kid again! When you're a kid all you wanna do is grow up and now that im a grown up i just wanna be a kid again!!!!!!!!!!!! life was so much easier. I wish G could be my sister too. that would be fun! and P could be my brother.... lol! I just now seen this show called killer karaoke coming on tru tv next! I'm kinda excited. i may be singing and my husband will be mad at me! HAHAHAH! So really i need to clean my house up. i need more space. i need a bigger house. someone came and looked at the house on saturday... and it was very very clean BUT like in the corners its cluttery.... Everything is piled in the corners because we have NO CLOSETS!!!!!!!!!! I need to clean it up! anyways. i guess thats it! MERRY CHRISTMAS! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!!!!!